You called me here to watch you cry

You called me here to watch you cry

You called me here to watch you cry
And I bear witness to your pain
You, whom I have loved all my life
Who only ever lived for me
And loved me far more than yourself
You have now refused to set me free
But bound me tight to see your pain.
When you fall upon your knees
And cry out my name
I rush from the meadow
And the flowing waters of His grace
From this place to which I’ve winged my flight
Where I gaze upon such delight
I wish I could recount it all to you
I leave this place to be by your side
To hold your face in my hands
To feel what you feel just like the unborn child
Is captive to its mother’s sighs.

Sharp and crushing is my sorrow now
Dull and swollen are my eyes
The sight of you so stings them
That I would pluck them out
And sell them for jewels
If that would pay off your pain
And bring me back to life again.

I would, for you, because I love you so
But I am with Him now
Held in His very arms
My heart suffused with His gentle voice
And had I not heard you cry
I would have said that I was happy.
I would have forgotten
All the cares and burdens of that world.
Forgive me, I would have let you go.

We must strike a bargain you and I
That you should live
And that you will let me die
That in your grief you will be kind
And try to see me as I am now
And remember just the happy me.
And I for one will come
And light within your heart a light
That will let you know I am alright.
I am, you know, I am just fine
Despite all that you had hoped and wished
And the shock of how it all went down
I have arrived, and I am safe
And you must stay, while I go on.

About rheaharmsen

Rhea Harmsen is a scientist, novelist and author of Language of the Spirit, a volume of selected poems. She has also released three novels, The Harvest of Reason, Intermarry, and God Created Women. Harmsen was born in a family with a black father and a white mother at a time when interracial marriage was still illegal in some states. Her parents gave her a vision of world citizenship that informs her writing and her lifestyle and has caused her to reject traditional views of race and gender. Harmsen's article "Science in the Hands of Women: Present Barriers, Future Promise" appeared in World Order in 1998 and provides the foundation for the story line for her novel The Harvest of Reason. She co-published the Monroeville Race Unity Forum Bulletin and authored many poems on racial topics, crystallizing the "conversation on race" in the novel Intermarry. Her work with domestic violence survivors in Puerto Rico inspired the novel God Created Women. Harmsen holds a doctorate in Plant Breeding and Plant Genetics from the University of Wisconsin-Madison. She currently resides in Puerto Rico. Upcomming projects are described in her web page at
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